I dont know what to do...dont know what i am coming to......mayb i am depressed.....plz any wise help..plz ans?

All this 10th 11th business is complete garbage to me and your prose is so disjointed it's not very readable. I don't know what you are talking about a lot of the time but it seems you are doing exams and you have eye trouble? However, it seems to me that you are forcing yourself to the limit and have been doing so for quite a long time. Forget the peer pressure, family pressure, tutor pressure etc.....the person exerting the MOST pressure on you is YOU yourself. Yes you are depressed and instead of going round and round in circles worrying about what's gone before and what might happen and what might never happen, I suggest you take a bit of time off. I suggest you go to your own doctor, tell him all that you've told us, tell him how you feel and that you think you are suffering from depression and he will help you. He will probably give you a sick note which you can send to your college so they will freeze your studies until you are completely well again. He will also send you for some counselling (not with a psychiatrist, with a counsellor) where you can get all your worries off your chest and he will also prescribe some anti-depressants for you to take for a few months. Your studies are weighing on you. Removing you from them for a short period will give you time to take stock properly. While your studies are frozen, you will not have to worry about them and it will give you breathing space to think of your health and give you time to spend on getting better. Exam results are all very well, but they are NOT the end of the world and they are NOT the automatic key to a wonderful future. Good results are helpful....but that's all. You have been concentrating solely on one thing for a long time - probably to the detriment of all other parts of your life. No wonder you are ill. Your eyes need attention now. While you are at the doctor's surgery discuss your eye problems with him and ask him what can be done immediately to help them and what can be done long-term for them. Do NOT ignore your health in favour of your studies. Your health is here and now. Studies can always be shelved until later. When you resume your studies, because you won't be depressed then and your eyes won't be troubling you so much, you will do far better. With a brief rest and recuperation, your exam scores will be much higher than if you do them in a month when you are ill. An easy 80% is far better than a forced and agonised 60%. Go to your doctor NOW and DO AS HE SAYS.